Tomorrow the last items will be moved from my condo to my new apartment. No more condo.
My new place is what I wanted. A fresh start. None of my ex's, former friends, or other less savory people occupying my history will know where to find me.
Okay, its not exactly what I wanted. The idea was this place would be my fresh start with him. That everything I once knew was done and for the first time I was entering a new chapter in my life with someone I could rely on. I wouldn't be alone this time around. Freedom to someone, not away from someone.
Now its not that. I once again reinvent my life alone. I do have friends and family I can rely on during this, but at the core, I'm alone.
This has left me quite simply, lonely. It was bad enough adjusting to not hearing his ring tone or the constant texts that we sent all day. Now I really am jumping into a life that doesn't include him. I have to accept the fact that it will never include him. Damnit I'm lonely.
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